Tomorrow is the big first day of the adventures of Elder Wadley III actually IIII (or is it IV?). His dad, two older brothers, and then Shayne makes the fourth "Elder Wadley."
He will be going into the MTC and then out to Modesto, California.
We have a sweet friend living in California who is not a member of our church make the off-hand comment that "I can't think of any place that needs 'the good word' more than Modesto."
I have been clinging to those words for the past few weeks since he opened his call to serve.
Those words have helped me to focus on everything he is going to accomplish in the next two years, and less on the gaping holes in my heart.
When people ask how I am doing booting yet another chick out of the nest- the best descriptor I can come up with is that my heart feels like dryer lint.
This time I feel selfish.
Because he is our peacemaker. He is sensitive. He listens to people with his whole heart. He is thoughtful, gentle and kind. He has the best laugh! We are all going to miss that most of all.
The selfish part comes because I know how excited he is to serve the Lord. I know what an awesome missionary he is going to be. He is so ready for this. The next two years are going to bring him so much joy and fulfillment, and I feel guilty thinking that since he knows that I am going to struggle without him, my feelings might diminish his happiness even for a second.
So. I have been overly chipper these past last days- hoping to compensate for the dryer lint.
I hope I am not coming off as just weird. (-er than normal)
Today is our last full day with him.
What do you do on a last day?
It is a desperate feeling.
So we start a new adventure.
With hope for good things to come, and faith for His grace in the changes.
And a lot of chocolate.
We have a sweet friend living in California who is not a member of our church make the off-hand comment that "I can't think of any place that needs 'the good word' more than Modesto."
I have been clinging to those words for the past few weeks since he opened his call to serve.
Those words have helped me to focus on everything he is going to accomplish in the next two years, and less on the gaping holes in my heart.
When people ask how I am doing booting yet another chick out of the nest- the best descriptor I can come up with is that my heart feels like dryer lint.
This time I feel selfish.
Because he is our peacemaker. He is sensitive. He listens to people with his whole heart. He is thoughtful, gentle and kind. He has the best laugh! We are all going to miss that most of all.
The selfish part comes because I know how excited he is to serve the Lord. I know what an awesome missionary he is going to be. He is so ready for this. The next two years are going to bring him so much joy and fulfillment, and I feel guilty thinking that since he knows that I am going to struggle without him, my feelings might diminish his happiness even for a second.
So. I have been overly chipper these past last days- hoping to compensate for the dryer lint.
I hope I am not coming off as just weird. (-er than normal)
Today is our last full day with him.
What do you do on a last day?
It is a desperate feeling.
So we start a new adventure.
With hope for good things to come, and faith for His grace in the changes.
And a lot of chocolate.
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